Lately I have been having issues with monotony and motherhood.. I do the same thing over and over again, every single day. I get tired of it, as I am sure all mamas do at some point (and if you say you don't or never have felt this way, you're lying! That, or you are flippin' supernatural or related to Michelle Duggar). Anyways, I'm slowly learning that everything we do in motherhood matters! Every. Single. Thing.
My oldest child really showed me this today, even without words, he showed me his mama mattered to him! I walked in after being gone from a dental appointment while honestly thinking the last thing I wanted to do was be around screaming children and fixing them dinner that would likely just end up on the floor. I walked in, and my oldest ran up behind me and gave me the biggest hug, while my youngest was at my feet in the front reaching up for me. My heart melted. My children really do love me and appreciate me in their own way. It turns out dinner didn't end up on the floor and both boys gave their mama a kiss as I cleaned them up from dinner.
As I was sitting on the couch earlier, after doing our full bedtime routine of teeth brushing, prayers, hugs/kisses, and playing lullaby music, it hit me.. My children ran to me for hugs and affection because what I do for them matters! Every morning, getting them dressed and fed breakfast, changing their diapers, working on therapy with Eli, even when that means K might be missing out on attention, fixing them meals and snacks even though it might just end up on the floor, getting down to their level and playing with them, washing their hands before they eat, talking to them throughout the day even though I don't get much response back, and tucking them into bed every night only to know I will do the same things all over again the next day. It ALL matters! Littles can be so exhausting both mentally and physically, but don't ever think for a second they don't notice what you do for them. Realizing this makes me feel that I am more than 'just a mom' . So to the mamas who are mentally and physically exhausted with your littles and tired of the monotony.. What you are doing matters, you are so much more than just a mom!
